Life after facing a hurt story and had to go to study far away from my beloved people. I felt alone, confused, sad, happy, and struggled for many years. I lost many things until I lost myself for a while, possibly caused by my growing up. Many things of mine were messy, it was impossible to escape from the infinite loop. But in that cruel period of time, my mother soothed me when waking up from a bad dream which was so kind and good for me. Anyway, that was just healing sometimes, those feelings have never gone from my head.